POISON WITH A SMILE – The Alphabet Soup

A collection of handwritten lyrics put to song using AI. Each track written by someone who has endured narcissistic discard, written from the first moment all the way through to a point of healing and finding self-worth again.

Illusion – 00:01​
The moment of discard. Mental health drops with shock. Sleep is near impossible.

Parasite – 03:52​
That moment you’ve discovered you’ve been used. They even had new supply lined up before the break.

Limbo – 07:20​
Your soul is eaten to its core and the world doesn’t feel real anymore.

Just A Fake – 11:05​
The reality you didn’t wish before comes to light.

Rumination – 14:40​
You head is sore with invading thoughts, some harmful. Feels like a swarm of bees in your head.

Flying Monkey – 19:05​
The abuser starts playing the innocent. Their supporters launch an attack on your character.

My Girls – 22:22​
You discover the only thing keeping you going, and need to fight for something you shouldn’t.

Harder Than The Fight – 26:58​
The emotional abuse has eaten away at your mental health. The peripheral abuse doesn’t even matter.

Phoenix In The Neon – 30:27​
You reach out. The severity is too much. It’s something you should have done sooner but you lost faith. You may be successful in court.

Gold Digger – 34:31​
People come forward. You realise you’re not the only one they’ve used over the years. The person you knew was an act.

Covert Narcissist – 38:18​
The jigsaw pieces fall into place with all that you have learned and recalled from Comms over the years.

Danger – 41:23​
The switch in your head happens, the help from friends, family, colleagues and therapists paying off.

Making Changes – 44:37​
Small steps as recovery begins, though it’ll never fully completed. Scars will remain but wisdom builds. You know what to mind out for in future.

Feeling Indestructible – 47:48​
Time passes, a sense of belonging and worth props you up again. People who knew congratulate your efforts and admire your resilience.

Unstoppable – 51:07​
You may not have the resolve you wanted, but you have made it through. You are a survivor.

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